AT ESTHER HSE

At Esther Hse

After my work,Esther & David come to my working place & look for me.Waiting for me to knock off.It's already 1 plus in the morning.Then i go to the bank to withdraw some cash before i go back to 7-11 to purchase foods.After purchase my items,i go to Esther hse to eat & online as my com,i cancel my internet as my com lag.

When i online,i chat with Isabel as she is still online.Isabel thanks for your encouragement.Sabrina,you too.I really happy to know both of you when i first came to Church.You both will be there for me whenever i need help or i'm down.

Thanks Friends...Take care...

To my dear Esther and Shimin,thanks for your care & encouragement.

Your are my forever sis.

Sad Time

I get my O lvl result on fri(10/02),and yesterday,i went out with Priscillia.At night,i saw Amelyn & her boyfreind,Elvin @ Plaza Sing.After which we went home together & they accompany me to drink with my god brother,James.They accompany me till 3am then we went back home. When i reach home,i can't even sleep.2.30pm reach le,i called my friend & asked her to help me checked my result.I was so shocked,MY O LVL RESULT IS SO DAMN F***. Eng:D7,Em:D8,Sc:F9,Ch:C5,POA:F9.I was so shocked as 4 my Sc ah..as whenever i go,i always get my sc book along to study & in the end,i get so damn result..After which,i went out with my friend and Esther,Shimin,my manager called.i did not ans their call only i answer my manager call as i was on stand by on that day.When i was out,Ching Yi called and i answer her call.I don't know why i only answer her call.When i told her my result,i cried.only then i cried out loud.. After we put down the phone,i received her sms,and she sms me,telling me that if i need a talk,i can call her. I feel so useless and hopeless.

Saturday came and i was working in the morning shift,Friday night,till saturday morning,i no sleep as can't sleep.I no cried only when Ching yi called then i cried after which i no cried.Till today night,i no cried,trying my best not to cry. No matter what,i have to overcome it.

Friends,thanks for your encouragement,care & concern.Love ya

At my god-sis hse-Bedok

At my god sis hse

2day morning,i wake up @ 9.30am.I call my god sis 2 ask her out 4 lunch.In the end,i end up staying @ her hse writing blog.Haha...so fuuni hor..

Hmm..maybe lata gg out w her lol..Hee..so gd staying @ her hse,so windy...

So fun although @ her hse onli her & mi...

So gd 2 hv her as my godsis n fren..Muach love u always..

Finally writing my blog

TRIP IN THAILAND

Last friday,2 Dec 05,went to airport Termainal 1 4 trip 2 Thailand with my uncle,auntie,grandma,brother & 2 cousins.We took the plane @ 10.10pm but we went early 2 booked in.

The destination took abt 2hrs.When we reached Thailand,Bangkok International Airport,it's already 11.30pm,Bangkok time,Singapore time is 12.30am.We straight away took our tour bus back 2 Hotel,Name of Hotel is Eastin Hotel.My bro & i slept in rm 2802.

The next morning,we went 2 Payatta taking our tour bus.While we off 2 Payatta,we went 2 places like Tiger Farm,Crocodile Farm...etc..Ten we reached in the night ten we stayed @ the hotel named Caesar Palace Hotel,rm 403.

The next day,we went to the beach to play water.like banana boat,water boat..etc..

Then we went back 2 hotel to bath.ten we mit 2pm,Thailand time.Then we went shopping.

The next day,we took bus back 2 Bangkok,while went back 2 Bangkok,we stopped @ Dream World to play.So fun...Then we went back to Bangkok Hotel,we stayed @ Bangkok Palace Hotel,rm 4017.

The next day,we zi you hou dong.We went to shoppping buy our own things.

Finally last day le,we checked out @ 12pm,Thailand time,then we took bus straight 2 Bangkok International Airport.We took the plane @ 4.10pm.

Reached Singapore Ard 7.15pm then we checked our pasport everything..I reached home ard 10 plus lol.So tired.

Today is my Birthday

My Birthday

Today is my birthday,so happy but oso sad as exam...Haiz..but gg 2 finish soon lol..Hee..

Yesterday,i celebrated with my mum,brother,uncle,auntie,2 nephew and my beloved grandma..so happy,although its juz a dinner.After which,my advisor came & passed mi presents.So happy.After which,i was downstair with Jennifer & Wei Jie playing UNO.So fun & memorable.They both keeping fighting over Draw 4 Draw 2,ten skip or reservse..Haha...so fun n mi oso join in the game..

Haha..

Today,think will be fun oso but sad oso as Ching Yi,they all not free,have meeting in the evening lol..Haiz..

Wat is my wish?

Hmm..

Juz wana pass my Os and can proceed to Poly.All my frenz be happy 4ever as well as my ong-lost frenz.& oso my ex..

Enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!

Last Day At BMC

Last day of school

Today,last day of school.Can say happy & oso sad lol...Happy is i can save some $$ on transport. Sad is i have to leave the school where i have to miss the staff over there except my Math teacher which i not going to miss him.Haha...

Today,i only go for Chemistry lesson as morning i can't really wake up as yesterday i sick; difficult in breathing and whole body feeling hot.I no go see doc as i no $$.Don't wish to waste the $$ as doc will give me med which make my hands shiver...

After lesson,i go to the office to say fare-well to the staff over there...Then i go to Jurong East to online...

Will miss my friends and teachers and the staff in the office.

Take care my friends and keep in Touch.Ya...

Today @ J.E

J.E using Com.

This few nights,i can't sleep well,thinking of him.I really regret of letting him go.Instead chosing God.Did i make a mistake?Anyone can tell me?

I really miss him,its already 2 years le and i still remember him.Haiz...Now Os coming and i still thinking of him.How i wish he is by my side now,stand by me.I so sad.Sob sob...

What have i done?Although you see my laughing and sem nothing happen but deep inside my heart,it's so pain in it...I don't know in the first place,did i chose the wrong decision?Am i wrong???

Can't forget him,always remember him,our happy moments...

At City Hall Internet

City Hall Using Internet

Yesterday night,i did not sleep so well..This few days,i can't even sleep well,don't know if its exam stress...Haiz..This morning,i went down to school for my English Lesson,then my teacher said me look very pale,and i told her i no sleep last night.She asked me why?I said:can't sleep! Haiz...Then later Chemistry teacher,Ms Joni also said me look pale.Haiz...

After my lesson,i went to Sc Practical as long time no go le since after my mid-year exam has ended.Thought teacher can give some tips,Haiz..in the end,nothing.So sad... We just do experiment and all things seems up-side down.Can't find this solution and that solution. Haiz... So upset that i feel like going off but i did not do it la as this is our last Practical lesson.

After lesson,i took MRT to City Hall as later i have lesson at CHEC at 7.30pm for my chemistry on Metals Extractions.Hope this weekends,i can sleep very well...

So Good Can Relax

Relax Day

Today,i slept till 1.30pm,feeling so good.But...my mum also taking leave today.Haiz...Can't stand her nagging..But today also can say good la as she cooked her long time favourite CHICKEN CURRY...Love her curry very much...

This afternoon,Tiffany called me at last she called.She long time no go school and long time no news from her.Now at least i know she is here...Haha...

Later this evening,i went out to J.E as can't stand my mum nagging.Don't feel like going out but still have to go out.Haiz...Went to play pool with Jennifer and after that i here online using J.E com.An hour cost $2.50.Haha...What to do,my com down lol... Haiz...

Sian now as not much people online to chat...Haiz...Later after using com,i have to go back to have my dinner and then start to revise my work with Jennifer...

Shall end here...Take care my pal...

Juro Eastwriting blog during Lesson time

Skip Lesson

It's now 12.15pm.I skip lesson to come here to write my blog.Haha...So bored in class...

Last few nights,i can't sleep,thinking of my exs,the one who i went during Year 2003 when i'm in CHEC...I till now still can't forget him.In my whole life,till this age,i truely in love with 2 person,one is in Secondary,name Alan,the other is him le,Jack.

How i wish we never part.I regreted part with him as that time i have to choose between him and God.And in the end,i choose God instead of him.

Now,i really sorry,i want him back...I write letter to him but he no reply me. I still waiting for his call or mail.

How i wish he could call me now.

I cut my wrist last few night back,but nobody knows.only my classmates know and some of my friends know as they saw the plaster which i use. I very sad and don't know what to do?So in the end,i done silly things.Haha...now think of it,it's fun but pain la...Haha...

Writing @ J.E

Writing my Blog @ J.E

Wow...so long no write in here lol as recently my com dwn lol.Mi still the same,every nite crying. Feeling so Stress as O's coming nearer and nearer...Haiz,everyday,mummy still the same,NAG,NAG,NAG...almost going crazy.Now and then always go out to study with my dear Priscilla.Thx for her accompany otherwise i going crazy ah as my mum also nag whenever i'm at home.So nowadays,i always stay out very late then go home.Reach home almost in the middle of the night as don't wish to hear her nagging.

I want to thx my friend,Ching Yi from Ngee Ann Poly as she helpsme in my E-maths otherwise i wana give up de.She helps me by giving me free tuition.We known each other not very long and we met at Suntec Mac,she asked us to help her to do SURVEY,and she opt out the question if we need help in studies.So kind of her.

She helps me clear my doubts in my E-maths,and now starting to regain my confidence in maths...Pray that i will pass with good grade so that i won't dissappoint her. :-)

Today,i go school.Finally ah as about a week so,no go school wor...Today,i get back my E-maths paper for Prelim and i so happy as i finally in my life in BMC,i pass my maths paper,although i just pass by 2 marks,i still happy lol...Haha....Lalalala....

Tomorrow,meeting Ching Yi and Priscilla for Tuition...Haha... but stress again as going back to study but also happy as someone can clear more of my doubts in maths...HURRAY!!!

Crying

Crying

Monday night,i cried as whatever i studied,it just can't get into my BRAIN CELL...I was so fed up and stressed up...I cried for an hour plus before i stopped completely...I even asked GOD,why u do this to me?Am i not ur daughter anymore?I questioned Him...OF COURSE...there's no answer to it...Am i stupid???I even asked myself this question???After i cried,i lied on my bed,closed my eyes and slept for awhile.Then i woke up and went to watch TV...I'm not going to study since it can't get into my BRAIN.I slept around 2 plus in the morning.

Today,i just went into my class with empty knowledge as i did not studied for it.

Today is E-Maths paper...I wanted to give up my paper 1 since i did not know how to do it but my friend who sit beside me,called Huiwen,encouraged me,asking me to try and try.At last,i can't try out le so i decided to hand in the paper 1 with 5 blanks...Paper 2,at least i can do some of the questions but i still left blanks in between.

After i finished my paper,i took train to WEST MALL as i mit my friend,Tiffany. While i was waiting for her,i mit JieYing as she was waiting for her friend...After i mit my friend,i took MRT back to Boon Lay and took bus 187 to 7-11 as i was to report at 7.30pm.

I worked till 11.30pm.When i reached home,i had a quick shower before i do my blog...

So Tired Today

Tiring Day!!!

Today,i woke up at around 11.30am ba...Long hours of sleep sia...Almost half of my days were sleeping,haha...So tired as i worked from Wedenesday night to Sunday evening...5 days of countinueing of work...

Now,i feeling bored,nothing to do.Don't ask me to go study as whatever i study,it just don't get into my brain cells...Tomorrow is my start of prelim days and i still can day-dreaming here and can say nothing to do,bored...Haha...

Still wondering whether should i go for my E-Maths paper tomorrow as during Mid-year exam,i study so hard but still fail.IN my entire life,failed so badly,20%!!!U must be surprised,till now i still can't accept it.If i failed my Maths paper,i get the most is 40% plus but now this year.i get 20%...Wao Kao...

Feel whether am i really stupid or not fated to study more??I feeling vexed now...HAO FAN AH!!!!!!!!!I wana thanks to my friends who encouraged me,asking me not to give up.Thanks for your help.I'm grateful but just fated to be stupid la.

Dying Soon

Dying Soon

Today,i worked early in the morning till evening...Wah...long hours sia...During work,i kept making mistakes.I think my manager endured my mistakes and did not scold me as she saw me very tired.Wah...

After my work around 7 plus,i went downstair to buy dinner for my grandma and then bring back home.After that,i went downstairs to buy my dinner and stayed downstair with Jennifer and Weili.Wah...quite long time no went downstair to chat and played cards liao...Its seems so great...:-)...

A Long Day For Me

Damn tiring

Yesterday night,i did not sleep till around 5.45am then i dozed off to sleep. I was awoke the whole night searching for my bible HIGH and LOW as i couldn't remember where did i put it?Haha...and also thought what Sabie Msn me... I cried when i off the com with Sabie and called my gap...I couldn't sleep.

I woke up at 6am...Wao Kao...Onli few minutes of sleep...Today done quite stupid mistake when working...Haiz... :-( My manager even asked me what i did the night,no sleeping.I said i was looking for my bible as i can't remember where did i put it?She looked surprise as she said its HOLY BOOK,u can't anyhow put???

I told her that that time decided not to go back to CHURCH,so anyhow throw lol...

I ended work around 3.30pm and i went for cell group,i reached around 5pm. During the worship time,i cried again till i couldn't clean it off...After the cell group,i needed to go back to work again as no staff as one of the staff took MC.

After my work,i called Esther but she called me to call Shimin's hp as her hp is low coz she is at her hse...When i called shimin,she told me she is having headache and i was shocked and immediately asked her she got eat panadol. She said no panadol at home so i quickly turned my face to 7-11 to buy panadol and go down to her hse...

When i reached Shimin's hse,Esther opened the door for me.After awhile,Norvin,her god-bro came down by cab then we together took Shimin to see doctor near my hse.After seeing doctor,we went to eat as Shimin had not eaten and also she had to eat medicine.After eating,Shimin stayed at Esther hse,while i went back home and Norvin also went back home...

Pray that Shimin will be well soon!!!

Going Church

Going Service

This morning,i couldn't woke up for my class.But i still go and i reached school 9am...Half-hour late...When i first step into the class,teacher said Wow..Alicia long time no see you coming for my lesson?I said working lol...can't wake up!!

After lesson,rushed to work as my manager had meeting at the headquarter.I reached at about 12.30pm and started my work till 7pm where Esther came and we go church together.

During the service,worshipping God,i cried...First time cry so like that...When we sang the song "HEARTS OF WORSHIP".All my memories came back to me when Sabrina,Isabel,Geraldine.Ivan,Nan Yen... we all in W192.How they encourage me,stay by my side,trusting each other,helping each other....All the funs,we had during our cell groups time...Esp.when Sis Selena give out the receipts of tithing,she will call Geraldine full name...and i will laugh inside my hearts but smile outside...All the laughters and their calls...All flashed in me...

Once,i felt love again but after the service,i'm back to reality...How i wish i'm not back in reality?

I still wonder,should i go back to His presence once again or should i left totally?Anyone can tell me?I'm lost and scare...Really don't know what path should i take?

Last minutes working again

Last Minutes Yesterday nite,i slept around 3-4am as after my work,i have to go back to study my Chinese Spelling.In the end,i can't wake up for my lesson in the morning.I set my alarm @ 7am then i called my gap to wake up,after that i doze off to sleep.Around 7.30am,my mum came into my room to wake me up.I waked up and even sat on my bed.After my mum saw me woke up,she went off to work and i dozed of to bed again and not even waking up.Haha... I slept till around 11am then i woke up from my sleep.I knew that's the end as i no go for my class... Around 4pm,my manager called me and asked me to work as one of my collegues sick so i have to help him.He is my god-brother.He is having fever and today also Flow-thru...Oh dear!!! Around 5 plus in the evening,Esther Msn me asking whether want to go for dinner and to surprise Min...So we met 6pm and decided to go down to surprise Min at her house but in the end,Esther messaged her that we are going down...No Surprise...Haiz... At Min house,we had our dinner after that we went to her room to play cards for awhile before i went to work and she do her report... We had a great time playing...After playing,i went to work and Min do her report...

Last minutes Work

Last Minute ,Go to Work Yesterday,i went for my math lesson as long time no go for my math lesson lol. When i reached school,i did not immediately went up instead i messaged my friend so we can go up together.Our lesson started @ 8.30am but we go out 15 minutes later. After we went to class,we took our maths notes and signed our attendance then we went off.The teacher saw us walking off,but did not said anything...We walked to the other class for Chinese as we both long time no go for Chinese. We stayed there for our Chinese lesson and it ended at 10.30am.After the lesson,i even told the teacher that i will be there tomorrow. Around 5.40pm,Esther called me and asked me to go for dinner with her and Min.Around 7.20pm,my manager from 7-11 called and asked me to go work. Wow...again last minute called.Haha...Min and Esther told me not to go work as tomorow i'm having Chinese Spelling but i just go to work as the new staff don't know what to do.So i worked from 9pm till 11.30pm. Before i went to work,i called my friends to help me take notes if there's any as i worked till quite late and tommorrow maybe not going to school. During my work,my manager gave me towels and some disposable cameras and after my work,i have to bring back home.Wow...great can take pictures. Haha...Wow...long time no take pictures lol.... After i reached home,i stayed up to study my Chinese Spelling til quite late then this morning,i can't even open up my two tiring,sleepy eyes so i dozed off again.When i woke up,its already 11am lol.Wow...so late ah...

Cinema Cinema

Cinema Today,i wake up @ 8.30am and turned on the com to start writing my blog down.Last night,ard 1am,my nose started to bleed and i as usually lifted up my head but it did not go off so i hold my breath and started to sms Mint to tell her wat am i suoppose to do as it's bleed non-stop.After a while,i tried to use tissue to put into my nose and lifted up my head see wether the blood will go off.But it didn't.So i went to the washroom to wash my nose with water at last...it stopped bleeding but i can't breath as the water was insid emy nose.Oh dear!I had to breath through my mouth.After that,i sms Mint to tell her that the blood has stopped and what method i using...Can't Breath Method,this is my own method.Haha... After a while,Mint sms me again asking me am i alright?I sms her back that i was not really alright as can't breath very diffcuilt to breath and sleep at the same time. But don't know what time,i struggled till i sleep... Hmm...Later on going to watch Movie with my darling friend,Peiling so i decided not to go skool as today lesson is quite bored...Haha...me naughty hor...I also know that...Haha... Wow...Today the show is super nice..."Herbie:fully loaded",u all better go watch.Its such a nice show.I love the show very much ah.... After the show,my friend and i waited for her auntie as she wanted to go buy guitar. After we mit her,we went to Peace Centre to buy her guitar.While walking to Peace Centre,my mum called me and say my Nokia 6610i hp is here.She helped me register.I was so happy...Yeah...New handphone... Later of the night when i reached home,i quickly stored all my friends number into the new handphone.I stored till 4 in the morning and the next day,i woke up @ 7am as i have to go school...Wow...3 hours of sleep sia.Will be very tired.

Today's Event

Today's Event

Today i woke up @ 10am.Oh dear,late for skool liao...Quickly,i go bath and dwn to skool...While walking to MRT station,i turned on the CD which i got yesterday from the Church and listened to it while i was smoking the way.that's one part which worship God,i suddenly wanting to quit smoking.I even threw away my cig to the rubbish bin.Haha...Never thought of that before...

When i reached skool,its 11.10am and i reached the classroom,teacher was not here yet.She came in @11.15am,5mins later than me.Haha...

This class is Principal Of Accounts(P.O.A).When the teacher passed me worksheet and asked us to do.I was the only one who stared at the celing or i just smile and smile as i can't speak much of my throat...

After the class,i still eat Mac no doubt of my throat as i was in craving of it. Haha...Then i went to Jurong East with Hui Wen to look for her boyfriend and then we daparted from there as i was going to Jurong Point to but battery at Pasar Malam...

After that,i went into Jurong Point to walk walk.I went into Life bookshop to buy something.Then i went to Sembawang CD shop to buy CDs...
After that,its already 5.20pm and i quickly walk to the path where chartered bus is...As the last bus is 5.30pm...So i was taking the last bus,it was full of people...When i reached home,it was already going to be 6pm lol...

When i reached home,i immediately turned on the com to write my blog.Haha...